Here is a question for your Tuesday:
If I wasn’t so focused on the future or what could happen or what I wish would happen, what would I focus on?
I think this blog post I read last November was in the back of my mind when I asked myself this question.
I’m sure our answers would be different, but here are a few of mine:
I would say yes to the things that feed my heart, even if they require more energy.
I would pray more for the world; for my friends in Honduras, for the orphans, and the ones without the things I have. I would pray less for answers and more for inward change.
I wouldn't feel so guilty about a night of netflix and pizza
I would invest deeply into friendships.
I would ask more questions.
I ask way to many question, wonder about the future and love to see it all written down. Unfortunately Jesus doesn't work like that which is both beautiful and infuriating. I'm learning (very slowly) to ask more questions and think beyond my unanswered questions and trust for the moment.
When I come to write a blog post its usually only after I have my own inner struggle going on for awhile. We can’t encourage or share from a perfect or unaffected heart. This week I have demanded answers from Jesus and got mad when they didn’t pop up on my cell phone. Life is always so full of unknown and you would think I'd have accepted it by now, but life's a process and I'm still learning.
So here are all my thoughts scattered out for you so maybe you can learn from this daily struggle or just know your not alone in the yours.
Love y'all more than homemade pumpkin spice coffee creamer.