I’m in a weird place in life right now. Its been nearly two months since I left Honduras. In 3 days I leave for 3 months in Costa Rica, but my heart is still as broken and confused as ever.
What is life supposed to look like here in light of what I saw, felt, and experienced there?
How do I justify buying anything when children are dying of hunger, when families sleep night after night in the dirty desolation of the dump, and when so many don't understand the fact that there is a God who loves them in spite of their brokenness— someone whose love surpasses anything they could ever do and who wishes to lavish their mistakes, shortcomings and failures with grace…if only someone would tell them.
Its easy to get so frustrated about these things that I become counterproductive. Worrying more than I share, thinking more than I pray, and judging more than I love.
I’m learning to look at words like these and be moved to action, rather than frustration.
How, then, can they call on the one they have not believed in? And how can they believe in the one of whom they have not heard? And how can they hear without someone preaching to them? And how can anyone preach unless they are sent? Romans 10: 14-15
Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world. James 1:27
“Then the righteous will answer him, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?’
“The King will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.’ Matthew 25:37-40
For awhile now I have been struggling with these verses—-wondering how God could possibly expect this of all of us. I’ve tried rationalizing that it is the job of a few, but then I just let it say what it says.
We are called to share the truth we know, and to love those forgotten.
I’m still learning what that looks like in every day life. What I know for sure is that it means we have to get out of our comfort zones, out of our bubbles and love. Love with all we have. Love with a love that leads us to action and with a love that sometimes leads us to hurt.
“We hear only enough to motivate us toward compassion, not enough to haunt our memories” -Kay Arthur
I’m committed to a love that leads me to more than compassion. I don’t know if I’m doing everything right, but I don’t think we really have time to worry about that. We just need to do something.
“That's what love does - it pursues blindly, unflinchingly, and without end. When you go after something you love, you'll do anything it takes to get it, even if it costs everything.” ― Bob Goff