All too often, I feel like that word defines my life.
Last month I went on a mission trip to Honduras. Each morning I got up, breakfast was made for me and my day was planned around loving on orphans or playing with little kids. I wasn't overwhelmed about anything, my only responsibility was to serve.
If that is living on mission, then sign me up.
Serving everyday—no job, no school, no meetings, and no bills? Yes, I think a life on mission sounds pretty great.
Heres the problem— that isn't reality.
When I returned to the US after Honduras, I was a little confused. How am I supposed to serve God when I have to go to school, work everyday, go to meetings, fulfill scholarship requirements, go to church and handle the rest of my never ending to do list.
For me, living on mission meant coming back and starting a new ministry. Maybe finding a new nonprofit to volunteer with or serving the homeless every week. All of this pressure left me overwhelmed, and wishing I was back in Honduras, where everything was perfect.
I was talking to my friend Maria, who is from Honduras, sharing with her my love for her wonderful country and what a dream it would be to live there.
“I don’t understand why all of you Americans want to live here.” she said, “Here our government is corrupt, but you live in America where there are so many things to do and so much opportunity.”
In that moment I realized that maybe I am trying to create my life around one week—a trip that was incredible and taught me so much, but was not reality.
The Lord has put Honduras on my heart. I absolutely love that country, and I want to serve there in any capacity that He allows me to. But I am realizing that life comes with responsibilities and to do lists not matter what country I am in.
Right now, my ministry isn't adding more things to my already unbearably busy schedule-- my ministry is my busy schedule.
We get overwhelmed because we feel like we have to do more in order to be where were supposed to be.
But maybe were already there.
Instead of living just wishing for a life of adventure and perfection, I am learning to find it where I am now. Because if we can’t handle life and live missionally where we are, how will we ever do it somewhere else?